Questions

I don't get it. Why am I questioning myself? Why am I not confident at all? I think I may have found the perfect for me, who cares for me, who is concerned about me and all. But why am I not giving myself in to him? Why am I still questioning? How come I am still not trusting him 100% when I should have quite some time ago? I really don't have the answer with me. Is it because there are too many opposing views out there telling me that this is not the right guy for me? Well, I don't really care at the moment. I don't mind he's 42. I don't mind that he has an ex-wife. I don't mind that he has an ex-bf whom he brings traveling with. I don't mind that he has kids. I don't mind him at all. But the thing that I don't really get is the fact that sometimes I'm doubting him. Sometimes I feel like he's cheating on me. But somehow I also feel like he's not at the same time. I feel that he really does care for me and that he'll be truthful and loyal to me. Is this what people say the true beauty of a relationship? That you can't know for sure what's gonna happen next and what it has for you the very next second or minute. I have absolutely no idea. But one thing for sure is that I know very well deep within me that I feel happy, full and satisfied whenever I'm with him. Is that enough to prove that he's the one for me?

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