Life

Life.

What an interesting story it can paint.

I think all the ups and downs of life are the main factors that make life worth living but of course everyone would be wishing that they have more ups than downs. Who wouldn't, right? And as for me, I've recently been feeling a lot downs in my life but I'm not ashamed to admit it cause I know maybe that could just be how God is punishing me for all the bad things that I may have done in the past. 

This coming new year, I really hope that I can once again step out into the world out of my comfort nest. After 'hibernating' in this little nest of mine, I suppose it's time to be out there again. Well, I'll admit it. I'm a little bit afraid and nervous to be there again. That day, while I was walking back from groceries, I suddenly had a very weird feeling. That lonely feeling that I'm alone again, powerless and all. Well, I certainly hope that's not gonna be true because that would just be a disaster after building such strong empire back in those days and suddenly to have me collapse to ground zero would just be utterly unacceptable. 

These few days, I'm just at home being a carefree person enjoying my summer break to the max discounting those summer flings, of course, haha. And that's because, even though I'm still a college guy and it's supposed to be about fun, I consider the priority to the fact that my heart belongs to someone whom I really care about. And I really hope that we can last for as long as we can. Because no one has ever let me feel so deep and passionate about a relationship. For all those guys in the past, those are mere one-sided unreturned love but this time I do feel something very warm coming from his side even though he keeps on questioning himself that he might hurt me one day. Well, if he can hurt me, that only proves that how much he has let me fall for him all these while.

LuvBoBo