I’m Best At What I Do Best

It’s been quite some time and I thought it’s time to come back and share some interesting news with everyone. Well, this post will be mainly about myself. I think I’m best at ‘running’. Running in quotation marks because I don’t mean it literally. I meant it when in times of desperation, in times of stress, in times of uncertainties, that’s what I do best.

Just get out of it and forget about it for a little while. Just like going out for a jog or a run I suppose. But I’ll strike back eventually. Just a matter of time. I know it’s not the best solution or not the best way in any situation to handle things but that’s who I am.

I can’t help it. There are so many rough ups and downs in my life, and that’s how I handled it every single time. I think the important element here is to be able to reflect and self-evaluate later on. Well, until I come up with a better solution, that’s the method that I’m gonna stick with, and that’s my method since I was a child. I run. Run away from all the problems. And that’s what I do best in life.

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Things Are Different Now

You think you are good, but there’s someone out there better than you.
You think you are sneaky, but there’s someone out there sneakier than you.
You think you have hurt someone before, but there’s someone who has hurt more people or caused more hurt than you.

These are the things that we will never know. These are the things that are forever changing.

Sometimes when you are fighting hard for someone, then at one point it just occurs to you, “What’s the point now?!”.

Yeah, that’s the scary part of things because that’s when you’ll be facing the fork, thinking which way to turn and which road to take. And also you’ll wondering about the consequences of each of the alternatives. That’s when you’ll realize things are different now, because you would have known what to do or what you would have done, but instead you stood there thinking, which one. That’s the sign that the ways you handle things are now different from the past.

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My Shoes Your Shoes

They say if something old is not worth keeping anymore, then it is time to find new ones. But at the end of the day, who’s ‘they’? That’s the big question that needs to be solved here. Well, who would take advice from some hypocritical people who themselves only know how to judge people but at the end of the day, would not acknowledge their owns and advice given not taken, right?

Again, I think it’s the matter of putting ourselves in other people’s shoes sometimes. It’s ok to be judgy (judgemental) but would it be ok to judge someone before knowing the whole package of the story? Without the effort to investigate what really is going on? Definitely NO says the Queen B. Even the queen does not do that. Remember it’s all about balance. Sometimes things that we can see or hear are all from the perspectives of a third person. What about first hand point of contact? What about the person itself? Sure there’s a purpose of certain people doing whatever that they’re doing. So long as that pure motive is not hurting anyone, it should be acceptable. Just like in the case of people saying it’s a white lie, after balancing out the pros and cons, it’s better to lie than tell the truth. Hence, the movie “The Invention of Lying”. Eg. people say that there’s a heaven to comfort and ease the feelings of those who’re dying, to let them have something more to believe once they have left The Middle Earth, but is there really such a thing as heaven? No one really knows that for sure unless those who have been dead then suddenly sprang back to life. But people still spread the belief that there’s a heaven. Same concept here.

So remember, bitches, next time before you lay any judgement on anyone, be thoroughly sure that you have been through all that you can before being judgy. Personally, the queen has met a DH and it’s kinda annoying, the same feeling of annoyance while watching him on GG.

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A Fortress, A Well

I might not be perfect. I might not have everything that I would like to want in my life. Well, in fact, no one shouldn't. Life is never perfect but then again it depends how we would like to define the term 'perfect'. At times, I really dunno how this world works, and that's a very frank opinion. At times, I really don't understand why people are doing what they are doing either to themselves or to other people. But then again, I'm not brought to this world to play God and to figure out everything at once. Life is a journey as I always say. However, there's one thing that I know for sure. No matter how I fall or how hard I fall or whenever I fall, at least I know there's someone to catch me. I call this my fortress. And this fortress is my family. I used to not know or understand the true values of family but along the way I think I'm getting there.

I came to college with a total different kinda expectations. But what I'm getting here are just about half of what I would like myself to get. Sometimes I wonder whether I'm trying to hard. And, honestly, college can be a scary place. There are so many kinds of people who act in very different ways. All kinds of people actually. But then again, it is also a place of exposure and for us to learn things and to grow up. I guess, it's just the process.

As of now, I only know that the best remedy would be for me to cry. Yeah, as in crying with tears. Well, I can't really explain it. It's just me. Sort of need to cry once in a while. Well, not the kinda crying where people got hurt or sorts. But, through some really sad or touching scenes in movies and the like to channel my feelings, I suppose. How do I put in writing so that everyone can understand me? Well, it's just like a mug. It can only store as much water. When it's full, some have to be poured out before some fresh water can be poured in, right? That's exactly how I am. Weird, I know, but that's just who I am. I used to channel everything through the use of music and drama series. But now, since they are not of reach, I guess it's kinda difficult.

Sometimes we say friends are the next in line after family. Well, that description only makes sense if they are the right kinda friends. Now, I also sorta finally know why people say people from big cities are different to people from small towns. Finally understood. 

我不是万能的

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The Meaning of Love

It's been a couple of days, I know, since I last posted something here but the truth is, what can I do when I have other commitments to deal with. Even though I might be busy with some other types of priorities, that has not stopped me from thinking and wondering about the meaning of love.

These few days I have been wondering what would be the true meaning of love. It's ironic I found. Let me tell you why. Some people truly love some one yet they find it so hard to mention that 3 words which consisted of 8 letters while others seem to be able to spit it so easily that it makes everyone wonders in the dark whether they truly mean it or not. As far as I'm concerned, I only care about when my special say those 3 words to me, I want them to be truly meaning it and totally ready to commit to true love as I would to them.

Sometimes I really do wish to say that love is in the air that I'm breathing but I just couldn't just yet. If you know what I mean. It is not really a bad thing nor is it a good thing. It is just neutral in the sense that I really would wish to hasten things up so that we all can finally move on to the next chapter but it just is not as easy as saying it. You know how sometimes when we are reading a really thick novel with those tiny words in it, it takes time too to get from one chapter to another but those time taken ensured that the true picture and story are truly understood by the reader. The same analogy applies here. The time taken to fix things would ensure that whatever survived the test of time would be something worthwhile.

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I Told Him

As the title of this entry suggests, yeah, I have told B last night that I think I have fallen for him and I love him. He simply replied that he would call me today and he really likes me too. What is the degree of difference between 'like' and 'love'? Because, in my opinion, he's just being careful as he always is.
Well, I did what I did last night because it was the signs of the month from my Yahoo! horoscope. Oh, well. I'm not sure this state is supposed to be naive or pathetic. But I'm kinda sure it's the better one, whichever it is. Hope it would really turn into something I have hoped for so long all this while.
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Not-A-Too-Bad Way To Start The New Year

Well, it felt really nice to have someone called you immediately they have arrived from a holiday overseas. B kinda has me somewhere in his heart after all. And that's not all. He also took the effort to catch up with me last night. And it was....well..you know..(I certainly do not want to provide too much details..hem hem..). I am just so glad that he told me we would be like in a real relationship after all and stuffs like that. You know, how can a person resist this kinda feeling when that particular someone has fallen so much for the other person. I know you can understand my language. Haha. Well, in short, the point is I'm just so happy that we were able to catch up and the rest is history.

There's certainly heaps more that I would like to write about but I just could not put them in words. No idea why. So I guess till next time then.

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