A Fortress, A Well

I might not be perfect. I might not have everything that I would like to want in my life. Well, in fact, no one shouldn't. Life is never perfect but then again it depends how we would like to define the term 'perfect'. At times, I really dunno how this world works, and that's a very frank opinion. At times, I really don't understand why people are doing what they are doing either to themselves or to other people. But then again, I'm not brought to this world to play God and to figure out everything at once. Life is a journey as I always say. However, there's one thing that I know for sure. No matter how I fall or how hard I fall or whenever I fall, at least I know there's someone to catch me. I call this my fortress. And this fortress is my family. I used to not know or understand the true values of family but along the way I think I'm getting there.

I came to college with a total different kinda expectations. But what I'm getting here are just about half of what I would like myself to get. Sometimes I wonder whether I'm trying to hard. And, honestly, college can be a scary place. There are so many kinds of people who act in very different ways. All kinds of people actually. But then again, it is also a place of exposure and for us to learn things and to grow up. I guess, it's just the process.

As of now, I only know that the best remedy would be for me to cry. Yeah, as in crying with tears. Well, I can't really explain it. It's just me. Sort of need to cry once in a while. Well, not the kinda crying where people got hurt or sorts. But, through some really sad or touching scenes in movies and the like to channel my feelings, I suppose. How do I put in writing so that everyone can understand me? Well, it's just like a mug. It can only store as much water. When it's full, some have to be poured out before some fresh water can be poured in, right? That's exactly how I am. Weird, I know, but that's just who I am. I used to channel everything through the use of music and drama series. But now, since they are not of reach, I guess it's kinda difficult.

Sometimes we say friends are the next in line after family. Well, that description only makes sense if they are the right kinda friends. Now, I also sorta finally know why people say people from big cities are different to people from small towns. Finally understood. 

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