A Fortress, A Well

I might not be perfect. I might not have everything that I would like to want in my life. Well, in fact, no one shouldn't. Life is never perfect but then again it depends how we would like to define the term 'perfect'. At times, I really dunno how this world works, and that's a very frank opinion. At times, I really don't understand why people are doing what they are doing either to themselves or to other people. But then again, I'm not brought to this world to play God and to figure out everything at once. Life is a journey as I always say. However, there's one thing that I know for sure. No matter how I fall or how hard I fall or whenever I fall, at least I know there's someone to catch me. I call this my fortress. And this fortress is my family. I used to not know or understand the true values of family but along the way I think I'm getting there.

I came to college with a total different kinda expectations. But what I'm getting here are just about half of what I would like myself to get. Sometimes I wonder whether I'm trying to hard. And, honestly, college can be a scary place. There are so many kinds of people who act in very different ways. All kinds of people actually. But then again, it is also a place of exposure and for us to learn things and to grow up. I guess, it's just the process.

As of now, I only know that the best remedy would be for me to cry. Yeah, as in crying with tears. Well, I can't really explain it. It's just me. Sort of need to cry once in a while. Well, not the kinda crying where people got hurt or sorts. But, through some really sad or touching scenes in movies and the like to channel my feelings, I suppose. How do I put in writing so that everyone can understand me? Well, it's just like a mug. It can only store as much water. When it's full, some have to be poured out before some fresh water can be poured in, right? That's exactly how I am. Weird, I know, but that's just who I am. I used to channel everything through the use of music and drama series. But now, since they are not of reach, I guess it's kinda difficult.

Sometimes we say friends are the next in line after family. Well, that description only makes sense if they are the right kinda friends. Now, I also sorta finally know why people say people from big cities are different to people from small towns. Finally understood. 

我不是万能的

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The Meaning of Love

It's been a couple of days, I know, since I last posted something here but the truth is, what can I do when I have other commitments to deal with. Even though I might be busy with some other types of priorities, that has not stopped me from thinking and wondering about the meaning of love.

These few days I have been wondering what would be the true meaning of love. It's ironic I found. Let me tell you why. Some people truly love some one yet they find it so hard to mention that 3 words which consisted of 8 letters while others seem to be able to spit it so easily that it makes everyone wonders in the dark whether they truly mean it or not. As far as I'm concerned, I only care about when my special say those 3 words to me, I want them to be truly meaning it and totally ready to commit to true love as I would to them.

Sometimes I really do wish to say that love is in the air that I'm breathing but I just couldn't just yet. If you know what I mean. It is not really a bad thing nor is it a good thing. It is just neutral in the sense that I really would wish to hasten things up so that we all can finally move on to the next chapter but it just is not as easy as saying it. You know how sometimes when we are reading a really thick novel with those tiny words in it, it takes time too to get from one chapter to another but those time taken ensured that the true picture and story are truly understood by the reader. The same analogy applies here. The time taken to fix things would ensure that whatever survived the test of time would be something worthwhile.

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I Told Him

As the title of this entry suggests, yeah, I have told B last night that I think I have fallen for him and I love him. He simply replied that he would call me today and he really likes me too. What is the degree of difference between 'like' and 'love'? Because, in my opinion, he's just being careful as he always is.
Well, I did what I did last night because it was the signs of the month from my Yahoo! horoscope. Oh, well. I'm not sure this state is supposed to be naive or pathetic. But I'm kinda sure it's the better one, whichever it is. Hope it would really turn into something I have hoped for so long all this while.
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Not-A-Too-Bad Way To Start The New Year

Well, it felt really nice to have someone called you immediately they have arrived from a holiday overseas. B kinda has me somewhere in his heart after all. And that's not all. He also took the effort to catch up with me last night. And it was....well..you know..(I certainly do not want to provide too much details..hem hem..). I am just so glad that he told me we would be like in a real relationship after all and stuffs like that. You know, how can a person resist this kinda feeling when that particular someone has fallen so much for the other person. I know you can understand my language. Haha. Well, in short, the point is I'm just so happy that we were able to catch up and the rest is history.

There's certainly heaps more that I would like to write about but I just could not put them in words. No idea why. So I guess till next time then.

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