Love

I think I'm in love. It's hard to say or describe but after being so long I think I might be having a crush again. It certainly is not the best feeling in the world as it makes one feel so insecured and yet at the same time feel love in the air. Being in love is definitely not the same as having a crush, How I wish I am in love right now rather than loving or liking someone in the most passive mode ever. This is really driving me insane because I just don't know how to respond in this kind of situation because I obviously have not been dealing well with this kind of situation in the past. Looking back at the history of FS, then FB, then Mr.Y. Sigh. 

I just finished the quite a perfect date but the thing is it felt more like a parting dinner. I totally have no idea why it felt that way but that is just the fact. Probably because I am sure that in the future I probably get to meet him less compared to before. It's such a sad case that you're unable to tell that particular guy in the face in person that you have feelings for him. I feel totally disabled as this point of time. However, I believe the angels of love have been kind enough to me for letting me had the chance to dine with him.

I only have one more wish right now which is for the fate to be on my sight to let me have more chances of communicating with him. I certainly would not want our first dinner date to be the last moment we're gonna be interacting with each other (although it may seem so). It is just a mere seven more months left for the opportunity to spark. I mean, after seven months, who knows what and who is to predict the future. We might lose contact just like that. How sad a thing that would be, right? I mean, why is it that all the guys that I have crushes on would have to part with me eventually? Physically, of course. Not to say that it is relationship wise.

LuvBoBo