changes

miracles

a couple of days ago i can still remember it very well that i was saying to my friend that i would not be able to send his flight off..

and the words are still very clear in my mind..

"i hope that there is miracle so we can meet that day"..

the exact words and emotion that i used that day to express how i expressed my disappointment for being able to there to send his flight off but at the same time i believed there is still hope for us to see each other on that day..

and now i'm sitting here in front of my computer rewinding how i actually felt on that particular day when i get to the fact that i'm so gonna miss him when he flew off to begin a new page of his journey of life..

considering the fact that he'd gonna be in the US and the time difference factor and also the difficulty that we might face to communicate with each other despite the fact that technology is wonderful nowadays..

and tomorrow is actually a big day..

i'm not really sure myself as well whether getting the opportunity to send him off is actually a good thing or a bad one..

the good thing is that we are still able to meet each other for the very last time before he flies..

the bad part about it is that i'm actually seeing him leaving in front of my very own eyes..

that's really a big thing to bear too..

i dunno..

i guess i'd rather be happy that we're actually able to meet then be sad during my flight..

yeah..

i'm actually in another flight at 6.05 pm..

but we're two very seperate ways..he's heading north while me south..

haiz..dunno how to arrange my emotions right now..it seems like i'm starting to get moody already..

but whatever it'll turn out to be..i'm definitely praying that everything's gonna turn out fine tomorrow..Luv BoBo..

haiz

oh my God..i dun even know where to starts from..these few days had really been a freakin nightmare to me..its just so endless..i mean all the problems and issues just come dashing in non stop..please lar..just give me a few moments to breathe and gear up myself once again..i also need a break..come on..i need to refresh as well before i enter the battlefield once again to continue my journey..things are getting more complicated recentlt..it involves so many parties..my own probs are settled yet..and yet at the same time many other probs just come popping around..i know i have always been the kinda person who's not easily givin up but this time i reali have to admit that i'm the tip of the road to giving up..for the moment i'm just holding and keep on telling myself the fact that giving up at this point would be the same as pouring all the effoerts i have put in for the past 15 months into the drain just like that for no reason..its just so making me feel like i cant concentrate anymore..for the moment its up to God and i just hope that my prayers can help..Luv BoBo..